Here it is again. Valentines Day. I’ve always been a huge fan of this holiday, I think it’s due to the fact that my favorite color is pink, and pink is everywhere during the month of February! It’s a pink lovers dream come true…I suppose it’s also because, if I’m being completely honest, I’m a bit of a romantic. I don’t admit to this much, simply because I don’t want to be seen as some “head-in-the-clouds” girl who doesn’t live in reality. However, I would be painting a false picture if I didn’t tell you that I sigh a little when Gilbert proposes to Anne in “Anne of Avonlea” or when Mr. Darcy proclaims the most beautiful declaration of love to Miss Bennett: “In vain I have struggled. It will not do. My feelings will not be repressed. You must allow me to tell you how ardently I admire and love you.” Of course Elizabeth turns him down, making me question her sanity, but that’s neither here nor there.
I suppose one might assume that, since I’m single, I would be walking around in a somber depressed state today. While it’s tempting (that’s a whole other post), I’ve chosen not to be. Instead I’ve chosen to be joyful and celebrate the good gifts God has given me. He’s been so good to me, I never, never, want to take for granted just how blessed I am. Another way I’ve chosen to celebrate today is to be joyfully expectant of what God is doing to write my love story. No, I’m not dating anyone, and as far as I know there are no prospects on the horizon. But, God has been so gracious to give me encouragement in various forms whether it be a kind word from a friend, scripture verses, or testimonies of others who have walked this road before me to help me live in a contented, expectant hope. So it’s with that hope that I want to do something I’ve never done before. This will be a bit weird for me as I’m not used to putting myself fully out there, but I want to record this on the blog so I can look back in the coming years. Alright, here goes…
Dearest,
It’s February 14th, 2012, otherwise known as Valentine’s Day. It seems only fitting to sit down and write a letter to you, as strange as it may be. I’ll go ahead and admit that it’s rather difficult to write a letter to someone you don’t know. I have lots of questions; what’s your name? what do you look like? what do you do? where do you live? They could go on and on and on. So, instead of trying to figure all of these mysteries out I’ll just write and tell you that I’m so excited to meet you one day! I’m not really sure when it will be, it could be tomorrow or it could be a few years from now. Just know that I’m praying for you. I’m praying that God would grant you the courage to stand and be a godly man during these times where it seems that everything is trying to keep you from growing up, trying to make you just a boy in a grown up body. Know that your future wife is cheering you on! I’m also praying that God would protect you physically, visually, mentally, and spiritually, and that He would keep you for me just as I pray He will keep me for YOU!
I know I go on about certain characters from books and movies (Mr. Darcy, anyone?), but please know I don’t expect you to be like that. I know that when I marry you, I’ll marry a redeemed sinner (just as you will marry a redeemed sinner, too!), and there will be times when you will let me down, and hurt my feelings (just as I will for you…). I don’t want to look to you to fulfill me. I don’t want to place unrealistic expectations on you to give me a sense of worth. I’d rather find that in God. After all, it’s in HIS presence that there is “fullness of joy.” Let’s pursue that joy in Him together.
That being said, I do want you to know that I do look forward to living life with you. I can’t wait to see where God will lead us, and I look forward to taking every step with you. I want to be your biggest fan in life. I want you to know that no matter how many times you’re knocked down, your wife will always be behind you, supporting you 100%.
So, in the meantime know that I’m here living my life with the best of my ability to glorify God as I wait for Him to bring you. I’m excited to see how our story will unfold. May God and God alone receive all glory from our lives both now in our single years, and in our life together. Happy Valentine’s Day.
Molly